You Won’t Get This: A Short Story

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short story by Seth Dombach (Kloipy)

I now present my non-winning entry for NPRs ‘Three Minute Fiction’ contest. The contest was to write a story that was in the style of a voicemail. Here is my attempt

 

Hey Uncle John. I know you won’t get this message. I don’t know why I’m even leaving this on here, but I guess I’m compelled to for some reason or another. I guess it just feels like I need to tell you this. Um, I don’t know how to really say this so I wrote it down so I could get it out for what I really had to say but even that doesn’t feel right, so here it goes anyway.

I first wanted to say that I’m sorry that I didn’t stay on the phone with you longer the last time we talked. It’s not that I didn’t want to talk to you. I know I told you that I was busy and had to go, but I know that you knew I was lying about that. Honestly, I didn’t even mean to lie when I got on with you, it just kind of blurted out. I want you to know that it wasn’t that I didn’t want to talk with you, but, and I know this is a cop out; it was too hard to do it.

For a long time it was easy to pretend that you were ok. Like, I thought maybe it was getting better, or maybe if I didn’t think about it, it would, I don’t know, go away or something like that. But in the past few months it just got harder and harder to lie to myself about it. I could just tell from your voice that you were getting weaker and that things weren’t looking good. The last time I saw you we got a chance to spend a lot of time together and that was so much fun and meant so much to me, but I could also tell that you weren’t fully yourself. The last time we spoke, I could hardly recognize it was you. You sounded so tired and it just wrecked me to have to hear you like that. It just made it too real and I wasn’t ready to accept that. Like if I didn’t talk to you it would go away and the next time would be different.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have anything to say, because I could talk with you forever. I didn’t want to have a ‘last’ conversation. I didn’t know how to say something that would be profound or life changing or anything like that. In a way I didn’t want to hear that from you either. I wanted it to just be a normal call with nothing behind it. Just talking like we always did.

Now, I feel like a coward because I couldn’t be strong enough to just tell you again one last time how much you meant to me. I hope I was able to show you that and I meant it when I told you before that you were closer to me than anyone in my family. It was like for once being able to know that I wasn’t alone, I had someone related to me that understood, and that bond we had was just instant, you know?

I know that nothing in life is ever permanent except this. I guess I knew deep down that our time was short. I just thought that it wasn’t fair that it was passing by too quick. I wish I could have been as strong as you. I wish we could talk again. I just hope you know how much I loved you even if I couldn’t say it one last time.

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12 thoughts on “You Won’t Get This: A Short Story

  1. A nice take on cowardice. It should have won; short, not overly detailed & sounds like the format that was required. Maybe NPR wanted something with a socialist or political theme. Instead of this nice emotional entry. Good try. Makes a good post for your blog.

    • Thanks Marc! I’ve submitted 4 times so far, haven’t been picked yet. I just enjoy the writing so the winning isn’t that important (though I would be lying to say I wouldn’t want to win). I’m thinking about self-publishing a short story collection soon

  2. Very nice, I really enjoyed it. 🙂 I’ve entered that competition a couple of times now and haven’t been picked yet either. You should do a short story collection – I’d buy it.

  3. Seth, this was wonderful! I like your short stories. Keep up the great job and I hope they pick your story. I’ll buy your book too..only if you autograph it for me. 😛

  4. Nice one, Kloipy. Sorry you didn’t bag a winner; maybe they thought it wasn’t ‘cheery’ enough.

    As a matter of interest, what was the content of the one that won?

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